Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Good Pain

I often say that sometimes I get "good pain" and people look at me strangely. How can pain ever be good?

Well, I believe it can.

Certain things can cause me to have more pain than usual. Like going out in the cold. Like brushing my teeth. Like eating some foods. Obviously those things don't give good pain. Far from it.

Talking causes pain sometimes. Singing causes pain (not just for me!) And laughing causes pain. Those things cause what I call "good pain" Especially the laughing. I call it good pain because I did enjoy the activity at the time, and I knew at the time that I would end up being more painful, but sometimes the pain is just worth it.
Yesterday we went out visiting the family for the first time this year. One of my nieces is staying with my Dad for a couple of weeks with her little girl. This little girl is four and an absolute bundle of fun. She just doesn't stop. I wish I had a tiny bit of her energy. She had us laughing non-stop and we had such a good day. So I laughed non-stop, and yes, I felt the pain a lot then and a lot today, but it was so worth it. Definitely "good pain".

So if someone ever tells they get good pain, please don't look at them strangely. They've possibly discovered that sometimes pain is worth it.




Friday, January 04, 2013

I am a bit slow off the mark here, but I want to wish all of you a very happy new year. 
 I hope you all managed to enjoy the Christmas and New Year celebrations.

The week between Christmas and New Year, proved to be a crazy one for me. I had to increase my tegretol about three weeks before and fortunately, I had no adverse effects.

Obviously they decided to build up in my system for three weeks and then they hit me. And they really did hit me.


I had been feeling kind of “off” all day. This in itself was nothing unusual. I get days like this often. I call them my “side effect” days. Just a general horrible feeling which I find hard to describe and I put them down to the meds I’m on.

However, I went to bed early, slept on and off, then got up through the night to go to the loo. I felt a bit staggery when I got out of bed....again nothing that unusual. However, the staggering went to full scale balance loss. The place was spinning and I think I bounced off of everything in sight, eventually catching my leg on something which led me to fall into a heap on the floor.


Ian (yet again, poor man!) came running and picked me up and got me into a chair. He had thought that I had done my usual and tripped over something. But when I tried to explain that I was so dizzy, I found my voice had gone strange too.
 

When I did get back to bed, I think I lay their so rigidly, to try to stop the spinning, but I never slept a wink. Nor did Ian. I have to say I didn’t even think about the increase in my meds. I was scared.....I actually thought there was something seriously wrong with me. It was Ian who suggested that it may be a side effect and sure enough, on checking, it is listed there for higher doses. So dose back down, pain back up. Eventually, no more dizziness, but a few bruises to show for it all.



Oh, these meds.....so horrible having to take them. But I don’t know how I’d cope without without them.


Anyway I hope 2013 is better to everyone.